Break from promise

Ok now, even if is said i will continue to talk in this post about masks and fakes, i won't. I'm to tired to write about this stuff, so I will just post the poem for tonight, it's actually my first. Good night.

Apa...

Coborand in deal, coborand in vale
Apa se scurge tot mai tare,
Duce cu ea durerean spinare
Uitata in timp, uitata-n mare.

O lume-ntreaga de ar sta in cale
Apa ar trimite-o spre uitare,
Ca un orb ce nu stie,
Care-i mort si care-i vie.

Gusta apa caci sunt eu,
Ca si ea ma zbat acum
Langa mine sa iti spun...
Cat de mult te iubesc...Dar cum?

The masks...Part 2

So, back to the truth. To start of let me just say there is no such thing as the ultimate truth, there is no absolute truth. Why? Because the truth is a perceptual notice, it depends on the one stating it and the one observing it. The truth is the one your mind links to the truth. You take for granted as the truth what you hear, and know that this is the truth.
This could be very helpful in situations where knowing the truth doesn't help, it only makes a person feel bad, it takes him into those "bad states" that we talked earlier. We will always try to avoid those bad states like i said, and if this means avoiding the truth then be it. There is one thing to lying you have to do on your own, you have to be convincing, and this depends on you. I can teach you but this is something you have to learn yourself. Don't forget when you lie you are trying to help a person avoid a bad situation, not make it worse or trying to do harm.
Let's make it easier, the truth isn't always good, even if it's the truth. Oh and NEVER START TO BELIEVE YOUR OWN LIES! I'll talk about this in the next post. Till then take this poem.

Once upon a time...

Inebunit de sentimente,
Lovit de trairi, gasita in pasiunea
Nascocita prin priviri.

Ma uit la tine si ma gandesc
Cat de mult pot sa te iubesc,
Cand buzele se ating
Simt ca inebunesc.

Mai muscati buzele putin
Si ai sa traiesti un chin
Un chin ce il vei simti si zi si noapte
Sub plapume involburate

Iar ma las dus de val
Intr-o lume fara egal
Unde tu esti un inger
Eu sunt un vis, si...
Ne intalnim in paradis.

Acolo te tin prizonier
Fara a sti cum e sa fi intr-o lume
Cu primejdii ce-ti apar
De zi cu zi.

Imi pare rau ca vorbesc prin acest pix,
As vrea sa fi langa mine sa te simti cuprinsa de iubire
Sa te strang in brate si sa alung spre uitare
Orice urma de miscare.

Sa ramanem nemiscatie,
Pentru o noapte intrupati
Sub o lumina cristalina
Ce numai stelele o admira.

(PSi: This you can't take away...)

Masks...Part 1

Why do people always want to hear the truth? Even if that truth hurts them badly and deeply. Why do you chose the negative part, and not stick with the good side of things? Because people are addicted to the truth, they hate to have something hidden from them. This is why they explore every piece of this earth and every trace of life on it, even if that thing may hurt them. The best example here is the nuclear bomb. After they explored everything on nuclear energy they said, what the hell let's make a bomb. After that they started using it as energy supplier. This is just how things work at a global scale, and they work the same at an individual scale. You have to be prepared to handle the truth, it shouldn't just be offered to you directly, because some people can't handle the truth. People that get the truth directly without being prepared for it will be hurt, because the truth hurts most of the time.
The worst truth is that most people are bad, when they see vulnerability in others around them. If your character is vulnerable then you have to pay attention to what I'm saying here. But not here necessarily in the next blog because my mind is leaking poetry.


Mastile...

Teatru a inceput...la ceasul fara sfarsit,
Cand lumea astepta un final nefericit,
Atunci totul s-a oprit, ca o clipire cand poti vedea
Lumea ce te inconjura...

Vedeai masti plouate pe fete zbarcite,
La care atata purtare si corbu se sperie
Atunci cand cripta il cheama... sa-i spuie pe nume,
Disparand o lumina din stele si lume.

Nu pune masca fara sa stii ce-ti aduce...
Fara sa simti cum te duce...Fara inima si fara cute,
Ca apa din munte facand cale orbului sa treaca,
Dincolo de paradisul ce-l seaca.

Review...

Tonight I stopped and looked at some photographs. Photos I never wanted to see. I never wanted to see the past, but tonight I did. Even if those photos were taken a long time ago, i couldn't help it. So tonight i decided to introduce a poem expressing how i personally feel at the end of almost every post from now on. Most of you reading this blog wont really appreciate my English poetry, those how would like to read it you can find me at www.poetry.com, and search my name there. Why poetry? Because i find it very easy for me to safely lock meanings in my poetry that only I can see, and still express my main ideas. Maybe some of them are sad, or depressive, don't worry I'm not that depressed, it's just my style. Hope you enjoy it.



(If you find any mistakes please point them out to me, because I'm writing this after a long day.)

Back on stage

Long time, no blog. I just didn't have the time. To bad you can't buy time. But if you could i bet it would be expensive, knowing how many people need more time, and would like to have more time on this earth. This is the thing, a lot of people would "buy" time to finish their work or have enough time to pay their bills. Only the ones that see beyond their existence would like to buy time for the need to live. If you don't have time to live, MAKE time. This is the reason i haven't written in a while, because i didn't make time. Some times you lose something, or someone because of time. But you can't blame time, you only have to blame yourself. I've been trying to convince people not to make excuses and blame time for all their wrongs.
Making excuses is the easiest way to get out. Some people come with the most stupid excuses, but if that's the way they feel, let them, because you can't make an excuse in front of life. "I wasn't successful because of that....." "I couldn't love him because of that.....". Come on, stop making an excuse for everything, because you have the power to change, you have the power to do whatever your mind thinks, and your soul wants. Don't stop in the excuse, try to overcome it, and find a solution. To many people stop there and they lose. The worst part of it is that you don't see the loss right away, you see it in time.

The genius

Back in my bed with my trusty laptop, getting ready to go to bed, but not before i post what I think on this blog. Even if nobody is reading it, I'm still going to write it, knowing that one day someone will read it and learn from it.
Now the thing i noticed in life is that you will always want more. All people are greedy, they never care that enough is enough. I'm not looking at this from a bad point of view, not at all. You have one life, live it, as long as you don't hurt other people. There are some special people out there that have a general view of life. They see life wonderful, from beginning to end. This is the genius, he sits isolated on top of the world, looking down on all of us. I know i must be talking as if he is godlike. He isn't, but he is very close. Why is he so close? I'll tell you tomorrow... I have to find a more comfortable position in bed with this laptop. There is someone out there who know all about these laptop using positions. Damn wabbit'. Good night.

Recovery.Time

Long time since I last posted it seams. Hope you missed me. Just kidding, the fact is I'm getting used to post every day. It has become a part of my life style. I don't know why actually, a few months ago I didn't even knew what a blog was. Well life is going back to it's normal path, but I admit that the past few months made me think different i some ways, and I'm not talking necessarily in a good way, but that's what you made me and that's what I'll be.
You see situations, and bade states leave a good or a bad scar on your soul and mind. It is said that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't really buy that, because if it was meant to harm, the idea of you getting out alive isn't so reinvigorating. What I'm saying and what I have observed in my case and in many other, after you have been through a bad state you usually get a scar that marks the way you think, the way you act, and the way you interpret the world around you. Lets say you have been through a bad childhood, or a miss fortunate situation where you lost your parents, would you say things like this will make you stronger? I don't think so. Nothing that hurts makes you stronger! The thing that makes you think your stronger is that you went through it, in time. But the only one that remains stronger is time.
Time has the ability to fix almost anything. I say almost because there are some things that even time can't change. The idea is that some people can change, hopefully for the better.
The time for you to change is right now. Get stronger only by learning from your mistakes, and not letting those mistakes happen again. That's what I'll do, I'll let you know how it turns out.

The life you live (final part)

Well, I'm back. Hope this final post on the "The life you live" will get your soul going and get you motivated to take a big bite out of life. Every day you get up, go to school, go to work, or perhaps you just go back to sleep, in any of those situations you forget that life isn't just about that, about your every day works or habits. Going to work is a habit, so is going to school, time just passes by and you can't even remember how the week went. This is due to total commitment to things that in time pass, and in time you won't use them, or you will forget that you ever learned about them.
Some things are not important in life as much as others. Why take time to be happy when you see the Alps, or go to Italy, when you can be happy every day? Because those are rare occasions? Try to make these rare occasions not so rare. You have to enjoy your every day so the happy parts of life be longer, not shorter.Don't think so much about work, and forget about family. First there's family, friends, love, then work, tasks. Your happiness should come first. If you put your happiness first the bad parts of life won't be noticed, at least you won't notice them because you weren't caught up in details. The bad parts in life come harder when you're caught up in details, you forget to enjoy life, and everything it gives you. So stop wasting your concentration on details and start living your life as you should.
Start living your life, stop being caught up in details, take risks, get by the bad parts of life, and you are closer then you will ever be to freedom on earth.

The life you live (part two)

So, another day has come, and my mind is still cloudy, not to mention my soul, enough about me, and lets talk about us. We talked last time about those two different states that drive the human purpose. We talked about the happy state, and the misery state. Now we agreed that it's impossible to know when these state come and go, the most important thing is not when they come, but how can you go through them keeping your head up and not giving up on life.
The best way to do so is to know that even if this state is bad and the pain is awful, you know that good times are to come, and you are waiting for those times to arrive, even if the pain was larger than the happiness, in time this will even out. Now I am prepared to say that even if I give out this advice, and I speak the truth about these state that I notice, there is time of doubt, when even I don't know what to do and what path to choose. This situation is just like the one I am in right now. After all this pain I have to go through, I wonder when the happy part will come, you start to ask questions like: will it ever come? It will you just have to wait and see for yourself. I can't make you see the good side after you've been fired from your job, or you lost your love, but you have to know it's there and it will appear when it's ready. There are some people who don't think about the happy parts of life, or they don't see them. You have to appreciate what life gives you and don't see only the bad parts. This is very important in life to know that happiness doesn't come for granted, you have to make a difference between the happiness that you give yourself and the one that you get from "nature".
The only time when you won't have to think about the bad parts of life is when your life ends, that's when eternal happiness hits you (at least that's what I think). Now don't be stupid enough to think that this process can take less time and you can skip life, because if you do this not only will that eternal happiness disappear but nobody even dares to think what exactly you will face after, it's got to be terrible.
I will continue this subject in the final post that will be online tomorrow. This post was written in two days due to health problems, not to mention the "heart" problems.

The life you live (part one)

Again I write on this blog, knowing that everything is for nothing. The day you see the light at the end of the tunnel that's the day you will find freedom. The state of happiness is very short, and for those that think happiness is forever lasting, will have a big disappointment in the end. You see when you think about life, and you think about the fact that everything in this world always has two sides, the only thing you wish is not to stay to long in the bad side. What goes around, comes back around.

And after the state of happiness leaves you the only one who will help you get through life is you. Don't think you will be happy forever. There are some people that can't get over a bad state and they quit on life. This is the way to admit that life is greater than you, and you couldn't handle it. I have a theory, and this is it. After you begin your life get ready to go through different states, there are only two conditions the humans have to bare with, the first one would be happiness, in whatever way you search it, and the other would be misery. Of course these states don't always come in the same form, happiness can come from professional success or maybe a great love affair, but don't forget a good side always has a bad one so always be prepared for the downfall.

There is no way to say which pain is more damaging, this depends on the person. There are people who suffer from love and their are people that don't suffer from love but suffer from disappointment. Like i said, it depends. Now, what is life? That's easy, life is a challenge, the challenge to go through it and face all the bad sides and go by them with courage and stability. This may sound easy but it's not, at my age I have discovered that life never has a peak point, it will never get easier, but it will never get harder. Don't think that if you lost your relationship, you won't get another one back, you will but in time. Consider life a exam that you have to pass no matter what, no goal is to big to achieve as long as you have the power to go through the bad sides in the struggle to achieve it. It's not hard to be a billionaire but you have to work damn hard for it, and that's why people don't even try. The only thing that you have no control in this world is God, and all that was made by him, excluding us. Why excluding us? Because we have the power to choose on what path to walk on. Of course a lot of thing affect the path you walk on, and those things are the bad parts. Like love, that always comes with pain, so does life. As much as you love now, thats how as badly you will suffer some day. Not trying to be pessimistic, just speaking the reality. Humans were made strong, not weak but there are some that consider life is to hard, the bad states are to hard to bare with, and they quit. You are not allowed to quit, quiting means you will never have the chance to find out if there is eternal happiness or not.

This is getting to long, I will continue my theory on another day. Till then try to get out of your bad state intact and with no "injuries", and if you are in the happy state at least be real and be cautious and ready for the bad part. There is only one thing I'm sorry for... I can't tell when the bad state will come, that only time can decide.

Nearly free from your mind

The night has come, and my laptop asks me for mercy. But tonight i won't give it the satisfaction. The day was calm in my hometown, but the weather of kind of cold. Not to fear the human body can stand it, right? I mean how much can a human body take? What are our limits? I think the only limit we have is the one that we set in our mind as being a limit, I mean the human body is very adaptable, and very flexible, then why not go beyond our limits? I think the question lies in persons mind. Every one has at least once a day a question of doubt in their mind, if they can do a certain thing, if they can react in some situation, or if they found the right solution to a problem. I'm talking in general now, but bare with me.
Why not think from the beginning that we already have a great solution to our problem, and why not think from the beginning that we can do a particular task, without having the fear of doubt wrestle in our mind. Every challenge we face can be done, and their is not a field in witch humans haven't evolved or keep evolving for that matter. Then i ask my self why not do the same thing from a personal point of view? Well the only way to do that is to think, just think, that you can already do it, or perhaps that in a short time you will do it, that nothing can stop you from crossing your boundaries. Because the only thing that stops you from doing something is you. The only way to eliminate doubt or fear from your mind is to think you have already done it. After you achieve this state doubts, fear, all these thing that are holding you down will disappear. And then you will be free.

Back from time

I haven't posted a word this weekend. Maybe because the thoughts didn't appear so focused, I haven't had time to think about what I know and what i feel. The good thing is that i feel, and i think feelings saved my weekend. That's the good part of life, there are times when feeling don't come in a negative package. My weekend was great, I tried to be alone with my self, and get out of this human body, enter a state of meditation beyond the realm of imagination. They say normal people are rocks beside diamonds in comparison with the genius that a man can be. I'm not trying to say I'm a diamond, what I am saying is that we should some time get out of this state of normality and enter a state of meditation and think on the things that matter to you more than Money, Mortgage, Wealth, and other life passing situations. It's a sad site to see that the only thing a man has achieved in life is a number in a bank account. Wake up, get out and start to know what is your purpose in life, your personal purpose. Start to think on what is the meaning of life, and after you found out your meaning in life don't waste it. Successfully build your self around it, and after that you will know why a genius is a diamond, and why the diamond within you is still reading this blog.
I hope this post made you stop and think about yourself, and what you are, after that you will know where you'll be heading. Not to forget my personal experience this weekend the spin was love... The rest is my mind and there it will stay...Good night and see you tomorrow.

The day of cloudy eyes

Another twist today, brings me closer to the saying that your heart was meant to be alone. The one you give it to has to much control over you and this thing can make you spin, not in a good way. Maybe I'm being pessimistic, or maybe these are the thoughts of a man in pain, but who know what i fell, maybe this is a fake feeling, and the world was meant to make your soul and body go weak. After all you don't end your life at the peak, you end it at the bottom. I think those for which life ended before time, are the ones that truly fulfilled there purpose. I'm to young to talk about life and the way it should, or not, end, but I am young enough to know what damages love can have to your soul. The way love clouds your mind after it leaves you, the way the world starts spinning around you, every time i think that the feeling doesn't make it worth the effort. Love has two sides and you will taste both of them in your endless hope to make a relationship work.
Now after this hard day, i would like to stay in bed and just think about all that happened in the past 2 months, and think when will those 2 months come back? And if they do come back will they end the same.
As a conclusion don't give until you know what you'll get.

The first night of freedom

Why did i make this blog? I don't know. Maybe because the best friend we will ever have is the written word. The night hits my head, and i can't even imagine the day of tomorrow. Should i keep writing? My English isn't actually perfect.
Why is every day so hard? Shouldn't life be a non stop holiday? It should be. You should wake up in the morning not to ask yourself if you're going to make it through the day. But this usually happens. Worries usually cloud our mind and they are increasing from day to day. Find a way to free your mind, and your soul will find comfort. I think i will continue to write on this blog, who know maybe this way my mind will be free just for the time being. Tomorrow the day will be harder than today, and life will give me a new twist. The twist for today was love, stand by for tomorrow and I'll tell you what life brought before me now.